craves for the touch of your hands
The hands that caressed me
Those hands now push me and I fall
Into a bottomless void where darkness descends upon me
Darkness becomes me and I lay here naked
Wrapped in a robe of shame
My existence a repentance for the sins I committed
I’m being punished for my addiction to your obsession
Thrown into hell, because I’m drawn to those eyes that opened the windows to your soul
Now your brown eyes have turned ice cold
the fires of hell can’t keep me warm
The devil mocks me as I shiver
But my soul, it waits and drapes itself in denial
wounded and powerless
Like a baby bird fallen from its nest
Ripped away from the protective wings of its mother
On every word you uttered
last January, I was your sanctuary
a place where you can rest
Now your every word
cuts through to my chest and slices my heart
into a million pieces… I’m shattered
Blood gushing out of me
I know pain
I shared a bed with pain since I was ten
Frightened by loud voices
I told myself stories to drown out the noise
But what choice do I have when pain decides to remain my loyal friend for life?
My heart locks its door and throws out the keys to no longer suffer from this infliction.
I raise a white flag and I surrender
But my soul
On a glimmer
hung up, hungover, hungry for you
My soul. It lingers.
hides inside your drawers
crawls into your bed
hijacks your dreams and nightmares
It haunts you,
And fills your mind with memories of two bodies intertwined..
Two souls lost in our own world
Now that’s all over.
But my soul, it lingers.
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